Look Up To Me
S.G.
S.G.
Paul Stephens (born October 11, 1980), better known by his stage name S.G. … Read Full Bio ↴Paul Stephens (born October 11, 1980), better known by his stage name S.G. or S. Gizzle, is an American rapper who is signed to Southern Stisles Records. S.G. started rapping at the age of 15, and began recording in a studio at 18. Throughout high school he was always attracted to music through freestyle groups and rap battles. Little is known about his earlier career, but not long before leaving college, S.G. remembers having rap battles with other rappers and former label mate JTL, who introduced him to CEO Mr. Envi', and was later signed to Southern Stisles Records in 2006. He featured on the labels first online album release "Monsta Game" and later became a member of the South Pound, whose album "Tryin' To Maintain", was the labels second digital release in February 2009. He also featured on a series of mix tapes throughout the course of 2009. He is currently working on his debut album entitled "Bonafied" which has produced its first single, "Bad" and has begun to chart on college and community radio nationwide and Canada. The album is scheduled to be released June 1,2010 through Select-O-Hits. He has also begun touring the local Shreveport/ Bossier City area and is looking to start his promo tour as early as May 2010. Shreveport, LA
2006
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Can you see me in this moment
Writing this song and still coping with you being gone
Knowing that it wasn't long
See I tell myself I gotta be strong
But it's hard when a piece of my heart is now missing
Shyt got me looking at the world different
Can you see me in this moment
Writing this song and still coping with you being gone
Knowing that it wasn't long
See I tell myself I gotta be strong
But it's hard when a piece of my heart is now missing
Shyt got me looking at the world different
This isn't the way that I predicted my life
Seems fictional, like I'm posed to wake up tonight
Look at my phone and notice that you're calling me or something
Come over with some blunts so we both can get to puffing
But it's just another front, can't go back in time
Only time I can see you is when your stuck up in my mind, which is everyday
Still hoping for a sign, that you're here with me right now
But I must be blind, cause I haven't seen one yet or am I in denial
Wishing I can bring you back for a while but I'm asking if you can
Look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all can be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Take a look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all can be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Can you still see me, is it true that spiritually you'll never leave me
Believe me when I say it isn't easy, trying to see you in my dreams, when I be having problems sleeping
Promise imma keep reaching, if only heaven had a cell phone I would call you every weekend
Just so we can chop it up and bullshyt like old times
This shyt is killing my mind
Everytime I see a picture I be literally crying
Feeling like I'm gonna choke, claiming everything's fine but I be lying
Trying my best to be chill
Questioning what is real cause I'm starting to feel numb to it all
Still I fight for the cause, cause I don't want to spend my life being upset and lost
So Imma hold the torch and raise it up high
So you can see me clearly from the other side
So I'm asking if you can
Look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all could be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Take a look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all could be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Take a look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all could be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Take a look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Although it all could be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
The lyrics of S.G.'s song "Look Up To Me" convey a deep sense of loss and longing for someone who has passed away. The artist is in a moment of vulnerability as they pour their emotions into writing a song while still struggling to come to terms with the reality of the person being gone. The repetition of the line "Knowing that it wasn't long" emphasizes the suddenness and unexpected nature of the loss, making it even more difficult for the artist to process their grief. The artist acknowledges the need to be strong, but also admits the challenges of dealing with a piece of their heart now missing, causing them to view the world through a different lens.
The artist reflects on how this loss has completely changed the trajectory of their life, feeling as though their reality now seems like a fictional story where they are waiting to wake up from a nightmare. The yearning for the presence of the departed individual is palpable in lines like "Come over with some blunts so we both can get to puffing," highlighting a desire for comfort and connection that can no longer be fulfilled. The artist grapples with the inability to turn back time and recreate moments with the lost loved one, leading to a constant internal struggle of wishing for their return while accepting the harsh reality of their absence.
The lyrics also touch upon the spiritual aspect of the relationship, where the artist expresses a strong belief in the enduring presence of the departed individual in their life. The mention of trying to see the person in dreams and the longing for communication through a hypothetical phone call to heaven underscore the deep longing for continued connection and guidance. Despite the overwhelming grief and moments of intense pain, the artist is determined to keep pushing forward, symbolized by the image of holding a torch high for the departed to see them clearly from the other side.
The closing lines of the song encapsulate the artist's plea for validation and approval from the departed individual, hoping they are making them proud despite the challenges and stress that accompany grief. The repetition of "I'm hope I'm making you proud" serves as a mantra of perseverance and determination to honor the memory of the person who is no longer physically present. The artist's commitment to continue striving and doing their best, despite the emotional turmoil, reflects a sense of resilience and a desire to find peace and purpose amidst the pain of loss.
Can you see me in this moment
Do you understand the emotions I am feeling right now?
Writing this song and still coping with you being gone
Expressing my feelings through music while trying to deal with your absence
Knowing that it wasn't long
Realizing that our time together was brief
See I tell myself I gotta be strong
Trying to stay strong for myself and others
But it's hard when a piece of my heart is now missing
Struggling with the void left in my heart
Shyt got me looking at the world different
Causing me to see the world in a new light
This isn't the way that I predicted my life
My life is not turning out as I had imagined
Seems fictional, like I'm posed to wake up tonight
Feels like a dream that I might wake up from
Look at my phone and notice that you're calling me or something
Wishing for a call from you, even though I know it's not possible
Come over with some blunts so we both can get to puffing
Imagining a scenario where we could be together again
But it's just another front, can't go back in time
Understanding that the past cannot be changed
Only time I can see you is when your stuck up in my mind, which is everyday
Remembering you every day in my thoughts
Still hoping for a sign, that you're here with me right now
Longing for a sign of your presence
But I must be blind, cause I haven't seen one yet or am I in denial
Questioning my own perception of reality
Wishing I can bring you back for a while but I'm asking if you can
Desiring to have you back, even for a short time
Look at me now, I'm hope I'm making you proud
Striving to make you proud with my actions
Although it all can be stressful, still I'm doing my best, So
Despite the challenges, I am giving my all
Can you still see me, is it true that spiritually you'll never leave me
Wondering if you are watching over me from beyond
Believe me when I say it isn't easy, trying to see you in my dreams, when I be having problems sleeping
Struggling to see you in my dreams while dealing with insomnia
Promise imma keep reaching, if only heaven had a cell phone I would call you every weekend
Committing to keep trying to connect with you, even if it's not possible
Just so we can chop it up and bullshyt like old times
Wishing for the chance to have a conversation like we used to
This shyt is killing my mind
The pain is overwhelming my thoughts
Every time I see a picture I be literally crying
Breaking down when I see images of you
Feeling like I'm gonna choke, claiming everything's fine but I be lying
Struggling to mask my pain and appear okay to others
Trying my best to be chill
Attempting to maintain composure
Questioning what is real cause I'm starting to feel numb to it all
Doubting the reality of my emotions as they become dulled
Still I fight for the cause, cause I don't want to spend my life being upset and lost
Persisting in my efforts to find peace and purpose
So Imma hold the torch and raise it up high
Symbolically carrying on your legacy and honoring your memory
So you can see me clearly from the other side
Wanting you to witness my journey from the afterlife
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid, Songtrust Ave Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Written by: MARK LANDON, EMILIO ROJAS, DAMON SMITH, MARCEL PRIMOUS
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